Blogging at Half Past Midnight

So I was going to write this whole spiel, actually I did but then I deleted it all, about what’s been going on with me and why I haven’t been around. Yeah well, nobody wants to hear it in depth, so I’ll keep it short.

My Mum died in March, which pretty much tore my life apart. She was an amazing force in my life, just like your Mum is to you….. and she was my best friend. I miss her like crazy.

In short, I’m not doing too well. I thought I was okay. The first month I just put one foot in front of the other, but the last 2 weeks have been hell. It seems the grief has hit me later than I thought. So I’ve been writing like crazy since she died, nothing I can publish here, but it has been helping.

Anyone got any tips on how to get through all this? I’ve now lost both my parents and seeing as I was Mums full time carer, I’m feeling rather redundant and having trouble remembering to shampoo my hair let alone pay the gas bill.

What am I going to do with my life now that I am no longer a full time carer?

They didn’t warn me about that.

I miss my Mum very much and my heart is really hurting over this.

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2 comments

  1. Hi Wonderful Lady! Am soooo sorry for the loss you are feeling… I honestly don’t know what I can say to help as this is a heart, spirit, feeling matter… not words… I know for you wordage is everything… and navigating outside of words is so hard… only thing I can say that I’ve experienced and have heard others say too… is TIME!… time is a slow healer… also, if you can remember her with fun loving memories of love filled times…. it flips the sorrow into a celebration of their life… I thought of you today as it is Mothers Day …so if possible think of her in comfort now… and how she no longer is suffering in the body… she will always be with you… as YOU CARRY HER HEART IN YOUR HEART! Love you, Billie Jo

    1. Thanks Billie Jo. It’s so much harder than when I lost Dad. Yesterday (Mother’s Day) was really hard to get through. I know time will heal. I guess I’m just trying to act normal, when I don’t feel normal just so the people around me don’t get affected. I’m going away. I leave for Fiji in a week. 6 days of relaxation and I want to keep away from people for a while.
      Love you loads Lady. Hope you’re happy.

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